And then my real life will begin in ETERNITY as promised in God’s word. This is my HOPE. This is not a wish or some childish naivety. This is what the Bible tells us. In 1 John 5:11-12 the word tell us, “And this is the testimony: God has given us eternal life, and this life is in his Son. He who has the (Faith in the Son of God) Son has life, he who does not have the Son of God does not have life.
I know that I am quite redundant regarding this point, but it would be a shame for someone to lose eternal life because no one has shared this with them.
Let’s talk about the future. Right now to be honest I’m not feeling the best. I am dealing with constant fevers that have negatively impacted my energy. Each day I get fevers anywhere from 99 degrees to 102+ degrees. This saps my strength and causes me to be very emotional to the point where a touching commercial will set me off!!! I don’t want to be insensitive here but I guess its like having a period daily!! Ladies, you now have a empathic and compassionate ally. I get night sweats to the point of totally soaking two tee sheets per night. I now put thick towels down on my sheets so they will absorb the moisture. This past Wed (the 13th) I had planned to fly to Dallas to get my second immune therapy. The objective of this experimental therapy is to take the treated and multiplied immune killer and memory cells we developed from a cancer lab in Greece and re-introduce them into my body. On Tuesday the day before I planned on flying to Dallas I shared with the Lord in prayer that if I wasn’t supposed to go to Dallas (due to coughing from the medically induced lung injury) slam the door shut on me. Well, let me tell you He did it in a big way. I was 30 minutes from boarding the flight and something nudged me (no it wasn’t Terry) to call the clinic to be sure they were ready for me. I called and talked to Linda the receptionist and told her I was on the way. She said, “what?” (In a surprised voice) let me check with the doctor. I knew right then I wasn’t going to get on that plane. Sure enough the doctor wasn’t ready for me. He was still waiting on the doctor from the Greek cancer lab to confirm with him a couple of things regarding my status. So, there I was at gate 22 eating a salad I had ordered frantically calling the customer service departments of Delta, Budget, and Hyatt to change dates without penalties. By the grace of God no one charged any change fees and I’m ready to go for my future trip to Dallas either in late September or Oct 5th.
I feel like I’m in the Wilderness wandering like the Israelites did waiting to get in to the land of “milk and honey”. I’m just waiting on the Lord. He sustains me when I get impatient or unquiet about my health and treatments. There is a great Psalm that helps me in these uncertain times. It’s Psalm 46:10 it says, “Be still and know that I am God”. Nuff said!!! He is God and I am not. This verse is all about reverently honoring him and his power and majesty. We are to take time each day to be still and be joyful and rejoice that He is our God. So I do. I read His word daily. I focus on healing scriptures when my back gets sore due to the fracture in the T10. Or, when I start coughing (to the point of vomit…..sorry about that :>) I think about healing verses and start saying them out loud. While its very difficult to praise God when in pain I do my best because He wants us to praise Him in all circumstances not just when things are going well, but when we are challenged beyond what we can normally handle. This my friends is the most difficult thing of all. The verse I love to say out loud repeatedly is Jeremiah 30:17, “I will give you back your health again and heal your wounds…”. I love this verse!!! It keeps my mind on the promises of God and not on my human circumstance.
Speaking of issues or circumstances everybody has them. I realize that I don’t have the corner on sickness (woot, woot). I realize there are many of you that have issues whether they are physical, mental, or relational. Some of you don’t believe in God, don’t trust God, or really don’t think there is a God that cares. Well I’m here to tell you that there is a great God. He has been walking with me the past 9 yrs and specifically the past nearly four years of stage IV cancer. In the wonderful, insightful book by FF Bosworth, “Christ the Healer”, FF who was both a pastor and missionary, tells us Christ wants to heal us. He died on the cross for our spiritual AND physical needs. We are covered by His blood covenant which covers all things spiritual and physical. He defeated death, Satan, and sin. I rejoice in this truth!!
My hope and prayer is that you will find your way to Him. Life may not get easier, but you will experience personal peace, assurance, and most importantly, hope regarding your life and the future. For what are we without hope?
I will let you know how my next treatment goes. My prayer and desire is that it goes so well that these memory and killer cells remain active for several years—they tell me up to four years in fact. Won’t you please join me in praying for complete healing and for these treatments to work beyond belief?
If there is anything I can do for you—to talk, to give you some guidance regarding natural things I have done and continue to do please don’t hesitate to contact me. God put me on earth to help others, not just myself.
All my love and concern,
Craig, aka Papa G