I find it interesting that the word “REST” is incorporated in the word “WRESTLE”. One word represents complete repose or respite. The other word imply some sort of physical activity in which there is no rest. In Genesis 32 there is the story of Jacob wrestling with a heavenly being—an Angel of God, or God himself. Jacob continued this wrestling match all night just to be blessed. He was persistent. God encourages persistence in all areas of our lives, including the spiritual. Where in your spiritual life do you need more persistence? Strong character develops as we struggle through tough conditions. This is where Jacobs persistence paid off. He would not let the heavenly being go until it blessed him and his family.
In the end, Jacob does what we all must do. He confronts his failures, his weaknesses, his sins, all the things that are hurting him . . . and faces God. Jacob wrestled with God all night. It was an exhausting struggle that left him crippled. It was only after he came to grips with God and ceased his struggling, realizing that he could not go on without Him, that he received God’s blessing (Genesis 32:29).
What we learn from this remarkable incident in the life of Jacob is that our lives are never meant to be easy. This is especially true when we take it upon ourselves to wrestle with God and His will for our lives. We also learn that as Christians, despite our trials and tribulations, our strivings in this life are never devoid of God’s presence, and His blessing inevitably follows the struggle, which can sometimes be messy and chaotic. Real growth experiences always involve struggle and pain. It’s in Jacob’s story we can easily recognize our own elements of struggle: fears, darkness, loneliness, vulnerabilities, empty feelings of powerlessness, exhaustion and relentless pain.
I know this has been true for me. I have experienced tremendous growth personally and spiritually since being diagnosed with stage 4 Renal Cell Carcinoma. Fighting cancer is not for the “weak of heart”. My experience has been one of total faith in God. I don’t believe I could fight this disease without the saving grace of Christ and my persistence of looking to him and his word to guide me every step of this journey. I believe God wants me to be well. Also, I believe Satan (who rules this physical world) wants to steal, kill, and destroy. My vision has gone from an Earthly one and all its materialistic trappings to a supernatural one. In my opinion, the things of God should far outweigh the things of man and we need to grasp the saving grace of Jesus Christ in our life so that we can live a blessed life and live on into eternity with our Lord.
Frankly, I’ve been going thru another health setback. I have a fractured 7th rib which was the result of radiation treatments to that specific rib. There is disease there and we wanted to kill any future growth. The problem is that the fractured rib isn’t really healing because there are holes in it due to the disease and treatment. But, I could always live with it as the pain level was always under 4 or 5. That is until I contracted Bronchitis. Have you ever injured a rib then tried NOT to laugh or cough due to the extreme pain it causes? The excessive coughing exacerbated the pain in the rib so much I could hardly standup. In fact, I found (and continue to find) I have to sit down often to alleviate the pain. I am now able to do more things thanks to a ZEE pack and additional rest.
I had two scans on December 14–bone and C.T. The good news is that there has been no or very little growth of disease since August. There is still the rib issue and a slight growth in the C3-4. I COUNT MY BLESSINGS and thank God for these results. The next step in my treatment is stem cell vaccines. This is where they take new born stem cells (live birth Mothers consent as never would I accept aborted baby cells as I stand against abortion) and combine them with my cells. Then, they create a vaccine to inject in me over a 6-8 week period. Currently, I am taking IV C and Myers Cocktails (the medical type :->) to boost my immune system and prepare it for the vaccines. The goal here is to make is so my body cannot grow circulating tumors making my body “tumor proof” in a sense.
The problem is that I cannot take the vaccines until my body is fully recovered and my white blood cell count improves. So, I need your prayers to get me to a point I can take the vaccines.
In all of this my hope continues to be in the Lord even if I don’t see the manifestation of my healing here on Earth. Because of what Christ did for us on the cross and the fact I submit my will to the Lord as my Savior I will spend eternity with the Lord in Heaven!! But, hold the phones, I am not throwing in the towel. As Willy Jolly the inspirational speakers says, “A setback is a setup for a comeback”. My HOPE springs eternal in Christ!!
The following is what I need prayer for:
1. Pray my white blood count goes up to above normal levels.
2. Pray that I would never come to the point of being so frustrated with all these setbacks that I want to give in and give up—I come against giving up in Jesus name.
3. Pray that my healing would manifest here on Earth—miracles and wonders still today. Never forget that.
4. Pray that God would use me in a MIGHTY way. I yearn to see as many people as possible give their life to Christ so that they can experience GLORY!!
I thought that it would be appropriate to end my blog by listing a few of my favorite scripture. They are as follows:
John 14:6, Jesus said to them, “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.
Psalms 92:12, The righteous shall flourish like a palm tree, He shall grow like a cedar in Lebanon.
Romans 8:28, And we know that all things work together for good to those that love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.
Romans 8:1, There is no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus, who do not walk according to the flesh, but according to the Spirit.
I thank you for your prayers and support. As always, feel free to contact me should you have any comments or questions regarding my blog. If there is anything I can do for you I would love to help in anyway. Just call or email me. I would love to share with you the natural things I am doing to beat this disease as well as to pray for any of your needs.
All my love and concern,
Craig, aka Papa G